Well, some time has gotten away from me and it has been a little bit since I last posted. I'm not doing too bad though. :) Things have just been REALLY busy lately. I feel like I rarely have time to just be and I have actually been seeking these times out and instead of sitting at the computer I have been trying to go relax a little and read or journal or just watch a "brainless" show. :) I have REALLY been trying to work on BALANCE. That is so difficult for me to achieve most of the times because I just can't seem to fit EVERYTHING in and take care of everyone...including me. :)
So, I am going to try to do a little update here. My job is going great. It is VERY stressful at times. Somewhat due to the job and somewhat do to me wanting things to be perfect. I just want to do a good job and for it all to work out...well, perfectly. LOL. The next few weeks will be very very busy and probably a little stressful as well. Today I met with a reporter and you can see the update on that at http://milenumber2.blogspot.com/. It went very well and I think I might have gained a new friend from it. Too bad he wasn't 30 years old, single, tall, dark and handsome. LOL. But I think even though that isn't the case, I think I have a new friend and I think the Lord placed him in my life for a reason. :) Other than work, it seems like these days all I am doing is going to church, taking care of Braeden, and cleaning as I go. LOL. I get to hang out with some friends here and there, but really, don't have a whole lot of time to do a lot of things I want to do. I keep saying I will get to it, but then never really do. I could probably use a day/night out just to have fun, but "I will get to that eventually". LOL.
Braeden is doing well. He is growing I think because I can't seem to keep that child from being hungry. He has recently really started having trouble getting to sleep because he is "scared". He saw a video not too long ago (it was actually a little devotion) that showed a little girl being scared in bed and asking her dad about if robbers were going to come in and if their house was going to burn down, etc. So, now Braeden has been scared of those things every night since...which was about three weeks ago. UGH. I have really been trying not to freak out on him because by the time he goes to bed, I am ready to try to relax. We have been working on praying, memorizing Bible verses that apply to his life right now (This weeks: "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be fearful or dismayed. For the Lord, your God, is with you where ever you go." Joshua 1:9). It is hard to find balance (there's that word again) in comforting him and not playing into what is going on so he doesn't try to just use it not to go to bed. He is sneaky like that. LOL.
This week has been a little more difficult. He has been talking about wanting a dad more. It breaks my heart because as a parent you want to provide what you can for your children. I can't provide this for him. He told me Monday night that he was ready for a dad. He said that he wanted a dad before we went to FL (in a month). He doesn't quite understand it all though and his innocence makes it that much harder. He told me I needed to go find someone's dad and ask them to be our dad. :) He and I had a good talk about all this and I told him he needed to trust God and that God would provide for us. And I am REALLY trying to model that to him, but it is difficult sometimes because there are times with this topic that I have trouble trusting Him myself. I feel a little alone sometimes....not lonely, but alone because I am the one who has to "field" these questions of Braeden's and try to comfort him and be there for him. It just gets rough sometimes. Right now is one of those times. I know in my heart that God will provide. And it will be in His perfect time and with His perfect man for us. Sometimes my heart and my mind seem to be at war though. ;-)
In the mean time, God has really placed GREAT men in Braeden's life. Of course my dad is his favorite. He LOVES to play with papaw. :) I think that is one of his favorite things to do. At church he has become buddies with a couple men there. He really likes playing with his friend Nathan's dad, Randy (pastor's son-in-law) and another man named Richie has really been great to Braeden and brings him jellybeans every week. :) I am very thankful for these men who take a few minutes out to spend some extra time with him and make him feel special. :) Another man that has really been great to him is his Upward coach. Braeden really likes him too. He has been great with Braeden. Last week Braeden fell down and started crying. He helped him up and gave him the ball. Braeden shot and made it and then the coach carried him off the court over his head. :) So, that has all been great. :)
Ok, lastly, I would like to recommend a book that i just finished. Anyone who has kids, is thinking about having kids soon, is a teacher, works with kids, etc. should read "Have a New Kid by Friday" by Dr. Leman. It is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOD (and practical). :)
God bless!
With love,
Brandi
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