DESTINATION: Healthier Life

Hey ya'll. It has been A WHILE since I have posted lately. Things have been VERY CRAZY and I have been burning the candle at both ends. Which we all know this is not healthy for me and what a mess it can make me at times. First, before I go any further, let me start by saying God is Good! He never ceases to amaze me! His plans are perfect and you would think at some point I would figure that out and stop trying to do things the hard way---my way.

Where should I start this update? Well, my job is WONDERFUL!!! I have never had a job that I don't mind going to every day. The people there are SO NICE and the company seems to be well organized for the most part and seems to run very smoothly. Of course there are things that I am still learning and trying to put together like at any job, like where I fit in and what my duties are and (if you know anything about me) how to do them perfectly. But I am figuring out this perfectionism business is getting me no where but sick and stressed out! Hey, I give it my best effort though! (One of those things I am learning that God's way is the best and my way will never be perfect enough!) I am telling you....these lessons are tough and exhausting! Probably because I won't let go of them....

Braeden is wonderful as well. He is a big 3 year old now! He is in pre-school and doing great! He is so smart!!! Sometime too smart for his own good...especially the way his mind works and how he puts things together. I had a parent teacher conference this past week and they told me that he had been learning to say "no thank" you when he didn't want something at school for snack or a toy, etc. Well, that explained a lot. There was about a weeks time when everything I would ask him to do (ie: go brush your teeth) he would say "no thank you" to when he didn't want to do it. I don't know how it works in any one else's family, but it doesn't work that way in ours. ;-) I don't get to spend enough time with him. :( I am trying to learn a healthy balance in the "single mom" world about how to spend enough time for him and still make sure that I get time for myself every once in a while. I am trying to sort out that that is not selfish, but is part of being healthy. For the past three years I have not taken hardly any time at all just for me...and to do grown up things...but I am realizing in order to be the best mom that I can be that that is a healthy thing to do sometimes.....that is one of those HARD LESSONS I was talking about earlier.

Something else I am thankful for is the friendships in my life. God has DEFINITELY been good there!!! God has placed women in my life who love me for me. They are women who are not afraid to tell me the things I need to hear every once in a while and I know it comes from a heart of love. Marisa has been my best friend for about...wow...going on 7 years now. That seems crazy!! How has she put up with me for so long?!?!?! However, I don't get to see her enough...or as much as I would like to. She lives in Egypt...aka...ZIONSVILLE!!! haha. And with gas prices close to the million dollar a gallon range....we don't get to spend nearly enough time together. Sometimes I wonder...I think her husband has planned it that way so we don't shop too much. I would like to think he had both of our best interests in mind, but I think really he just had his own wallet in mind. HA! ;-) God has also placed another very dear friend in my life, Sarah. I know that I can tell these two ANYTHING and EVERYTHING and I am SO THANKFUL for them both. And as if two really close friends weren't enough, just for kicks, He threw in a third, Kelly. She and I are becoming closer and still learning about one another, but I am very thankful for her friendship as well.

Like I said in the beginning....things have been rough lately. Good, but rough. There are some things going on in my life that have been going on in my life for a while and I am really trying to sort through them and deal with them and become a healthier person whom God intended me to be. I am thankful for God's Word, His absolute truth, friends who love me, and a God that cares about me and loves me more than I could EVER understand. For those of you who pray for me...please continue. I need it. Last night Sarah, Kelly and I went to the Jeremy Camp concert in Bloomington. It was so good. And not because of earthly things like the concert or merchandise, or hanging out (although, that was A LOT of fun), but because I felt like I got to go to that concert and just lay my head in the lap of Jesus. It was something I very much needed.

I love you all! Thanks so much for your prayers!! And even though there are many that I don't get to talk to as often as I would like to, just know you are never far from my thoughts and prayers!

~B~