Life in the Fast Lane

LIFE

When do things slow down?! I feel like I go non-stop...probably because I do. I very rarely get to do things that I want to do for me (like read, journal, rest, watch a show)...ok, really never. On the rare chance that I get to it is usually after I put Braeden to bed and I am so exhausted and overwhelmed with the day by that point that I don't really get the things I want to get done accomplished. I fill my days so full that they are just very overwhelming sometimes. I say I fill them this way...but really, to be honest, I don't know what I could eliminate?! My greatest sense of relief these days is the support and encouragement of my friends, prayer, and just relying on Him to get me through the days because I know He goes before me...AMEN!!!!

CONFERENCE

I learned so much this past weekend at the conference. You know, I really realized how many times I have lost from not being focused on it, or just plain chickening out to share Jesus with people. I have even found myself pleading at times, "Oh Lord....I can't be the one to share with this person....PLEASE PLEASE allow it to be someone else...ANYONE BUT ME LORD!!!! (read in your best whiny voice)...and you know...sometimes I leave it at that...and walk AWAY and don't share. This makes me so sad. By going to that conference I learned that it doesn't have to be so scary. As Mark Cahill said, "The first one is always the hardest....by the fourth and fifth I am chasing them down." lol. I hope to be that bold....to where I am chasing people down to tell them about Jesus. I often ask myself...what am I so afraid of?! Who cares if PEOPLE don't like me. I am not here to please PEOPLE! I am here to share with people about Christ and be obedient to Him...who loved me enough to go to the cross for me...and I have the nerve to say "but what if sharing makes them not like me?"

ZENITH

So, I am going to camp in a couple of weeks...all the way to OK...WITHOUT MY BABY!!!! You know I was thinking this was a great idea. Going with Kelly and Sarah. I actually almost didn't get to go...like three times...and was SO SO MAD that I was going to miss it. The closer it gets the more anxious I get about leaving Braeden behind. We have not been apart like this ever. And to be honest...not real sure how I am going to make it through other than by leaning on His strength because I don't have it on my own. I am going to miss that boy SO MUCH!!!! It makes me real sad thinking about it. What if he needs me and I am not there. And I know that he will be in good hands, but they aren't my hands. Guess I need to trust that he will be in the Best Hands of all......and I do....but still really nervous about being away from him. Please pray for both of us...and pray for Marisa...she will be keeping him so she will have two wild and crazy boys on her hands!!!

I think that is all the updates I have for tonight......life...even though at times is very overwhelming and stressful...is fun. God is good!